A beginning with no end...

"Why am I like this?" and "Do I really want to spend rest of my Life like this?"  were two frequent questions, I use to get troubled with. Intensity of thoughts suppressed every time, even though I never try to suppress them consciously. When anxiety at cliff, I, either read spiritual books, watch some inspirational or motivational video or register for "Past Life Regression Therapy". When intensity comes down (or suffering is reduced), I defer my plan to be regressed or to know myself and got involved with drama of life.

As Norman Cousins said, 

"Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live."

Gradually but steadily, I was killing what was inside me! However, June 14, 2018 was different! Same two questions were exploding in my mind with much higher frequency. As usual, I had no definite answer. Contrary to past, anxiety was not decreasing, annoying me, like never before. From my experiences, I knew, it was self-imposed suffering from my mind. No matter how much hard, my conscious analytic mind, reason it, I was not satisfied. Let alone my awareness my dreams also did not leave me. Why now? Why me? Is this sudden?

No, it was not sudden, three times in last six years; I changed my plans to be regressed. First time on May 14, 2015, my priority changed and life had shown me other side of world. Second on, Jul 10, 2016, when financial implications stopped me to move forward. Third time on April 10, 2018, everything was setup for me, to be regressed but I let the opportunity pass.

What has changed now? Why now? When I could have done, "past life regression training" at lesser price earlier. I decided to give myself some more time. However, each passing day, made me more distressed, finally, on September 11 2018, I decided to take a step forward. Predetermined to attend "Past Life Regression training", no matter what it takes. Registered for past life regression training and was looking forward for my assignments to follow thereafter.

I firmly believe,

"In Journey of life, no milestone is by accident, life prepare you gradually."

Unnoticed yet something very beautiful thing was going on alongside in my life, my Meditation practices. I had learned mediation (Shambhavi Mahamudra) in June 2012 on insistence of my best friend Pramod. More than learning mediation, my intention was to accompany him. Although it was not serious affair yet attended all mediation guidance sessions. My short stint of meditation lasted barely few days. One of the best thing of my first stint of mediation was, I always use to fall sleep. When I discussed my struggle with my friend, we giggled, after all he also use to fall sleep. Contrary to our experiences, other people experiences jittered us. I wondered why no one else fall asleep during mediation :(. Even after practicing for few days result was same, dejected, cut short my mediation practices.

My second stint of meditation started in 2013. That was the time, when Angel (my daughter Samaira) was about to be born. Financial and personal constraints use to give me, sleepless nights. My eyes and body use to get tired but not mind. Mind never stopped thinking. When nothing worked, Meditation came to my rescue. This time as well meditation did not let me down. Almost instantly, I use to fall sleep. Merely 30 minutes of Meditation was enough to relax me. Rejuvenated and fresh, started dealing with life beautifully. My days started passing like a song, eagerly waiting for arrival of my little one. My angel was born in November 10, 2013. Throughout my life, uncountable number of times, I said, "LOVE" word but this was the first time when I understood real meaning of the word. Unconditional love for my daughter and affinity to spend each moment with her brought abrupt end to my second stint of mediation. There were many such small stints of mediation practices in 2014, 2015, 2016 and 2017. I was always sporadic.

Beginning of 2018 announced new fragrance of life. First day of year begun with spending entire time with my angel (Samaira), laughed like as if there is no tomorrow. To top-up happiness, my wife decided to visit her hometown (Gorakhpur). Joy overflow, without wasting a moment flight tickets were booked for April month. After all a happy wife is a happy life. My plans were also setup to have party at home. There is no fun, if Life goes as planned. Destiny had outlined amusing moment for me, which I never liked. Once my family left for hometown, Sleepless nights! This was not fun. Anxiety was at peak. I had, tried and tested solution, Meditation, but this time it was different. I was not sleeping during mediation but flying as if drunk. My curiosity at work, "Am I doing correct Meditation?", but was enjoying. Meditation experiences thrilled me; I continued my mediation, no end until today. As my practices grew so as my experiences. Meditation experiences varied, sometimes was flying, sometimes saw people, sometimes heard voices, sometimes blessing from someone but most of the time suggestion from inner voice to know purpose of my life. Although, I did not sleep during mediation, could sleep peacefully in night. Vast achievement was, my Intuition grew.

[22-December-2018] 

I named 22-December-2018 as "D-Day".  Venu assigned several assignments to complete before this day to arrive. To deliver my best, invested several days and fidgety nights. This was the day; "Past Life Regression Therapist training” was planned.

Very well aware of famous Bangalore traffic, started from my home early, to be on time in training. No hassle whatsoever, Bangalore roads were looking beautiful without traffic. My Car was zooming past 80 km per hour.

At venue, was greeted by security, his smile and gesture made my day. Misty morning of Bangalore while sun was raising, made me more alive. Hotel ambiance was also hypnotizing.

Nonetheless, walked towards training hall. At registration desk was greeted by coordinator, an instant connect. After registration, she handed me a workbook. My experiences with workbook were never great. Workbooks were part of almost all trainings; I have attended so far and rarely opened them after training. It did not excite me. Next big thing was to find place to sit, it was not like there was no place, but it was more like so many people were sitting in front of registration desk. I have never been comfortable mingling with unknown faces (which is completely changed now), decided to choose a place far from all. I moved towards sofa where no one was sitting. Flipped few pages of workbook, did not excite me. I left the workbook on Sofa and went outside to talk to love of my life, my angel (my daughter). I spoke to my daughter for five minutes or so, my angel was upset at home because of my absence. Anyway, it was soon to be 10 am, came to place where left my workbook and bag. Gosh! Workbook was missing! Big deal, decided to ask for another workbook from coordinator. There were limited copies of workbook, so it was not surprising; I was, asked to search for my workbook. Additionally she gave me shock, workbook contained lunch coupons. Lunch coupons, information concerned me; I was more worried for lunch coupons than workbook. My search operation for workbook started. This was the first time, I went out of my comfort zone and asked the gentle man (who was facing me, when I was sitting on Sofa), if he had seen my workbook. He was engrossed in phone, so no surprise, answer was "NO, he did not". Alongside, there was another girl sitting on sofa, my first enquiry of workbook was futile, made me in fix. Dilemma surrounded, should I ask her or not. Additionally she was eating something. Nonetheless, lunch coupons forced me to ask her. Wow! What a beautiful response rang in my ears, "I saw some girl took!” Optimist with her answer, turned towards people. My battle was not over yet, to my surprise, there were eight girls! Whom to ask! No! God do not force me to do that. Great deal of dilemma what to choose from, hesitation or workbook. Well God heard me this time, coordinator found my workbook.

Before I could express my gratitude to coordinator, saw Venu. Most of the participants surrounded him, after exchanging pleasantries for a while; he redirected everyone to training room. Hesitantly, I approached towards him, unsure of his reactions. With reluctance, I introduced myself, his handshake instantly reminded me quote of Amit Kalantri from book "One Bucket of tears",

"Few people when meet first time they feel that meeting each other was the purpose of their life.”

With full energy, I entered training room. From school days itself, I had developed philosophy "Once backbencher always backbencher. I have never understood the point of sitting under teacher's nose." My philosophy at work, I parked myself on last but one table. There was couch in last but my experiences refrained me sitting on that. In few cases trainer request last benchers to be in forefront. Additionally, on that table, there was another participant, calm and peace on his face had magnetism. I exchanged initial greetings and perfunctory comments with the participant. Day begun with introduction, everyone briefly spoke about themselves.

As day progressed, Venu invited two volunteers to come forward. Not sure what was conspiring, I opted to be one (if remember correctly, this was first time in my life, decided to be volunteer without much thought.) Assigned task was, one volunteer had to be patient (or client) and another one to be Therapist. “Ladies First” worked here, first volunteer decided to be patient. Naturally, I became Therapist and had to regress her. I looked up to Venu, anticipating instructions for regression. Venu advised, to regress her by my own. I almost collided and mind became completely blank. Nonetheless, I was volunteer by choice, somehow regained my consciousness and applied the knowledge gained from assignments. I applied best of my knowledge to regress her. Although it was not successful but delighted that, I was on right track. Additionally Venu words filled me with joy, "This exercise was designed to fail but we will use exact same procedure." Next few minutes we discussed why procedure did not work.

I was taken aback by explosion of knowledge poured in next few hours. Although most of the topics discussed were new to me but ease with which Venu explained was commendable. Albert Einstein famously said, 

"The more I learn, the more I realize how much I don’t know."

As I delved deeper in the discussion was amazed and curious to learn much more. I noted down everything with best of my capability to revisit later. Plenty of discussions on each topic presented. I was mesmerized, surrounded with so many knowledgeable people.    

First time in so many years, I was in session for straight three hours, without tea. I was very attentive and no sign of fidgety. For short while, a thought brushed me, "What is so interesting about session, which engrossed me so much?" Before I could interrogate further, hunger took over. I suppressed the thought and first one to step out for lunch after all, food matters because it is one of the thing that forces us to live in this world. It was wonderful time on lunch table; so many energetic people were around, discussing diverse topics. Topics varied from personal life to mediation. Despite interesting discussions, my internal curiosity did not let me settle down for long and left for training hall. I was eagerly waiting, to learn procedure of regression therapy. From within, I was hopeful, my desire will make me first person to be on hot seat (regressed). Anyway, post lunch session begun with theory, which I let my subconscious mind to absorb. As law of attraction states                              

"If you want something in life, the whole Universe conspires for you to get it."

My attraction worked and Venu, finally invited volunteer to be regressed. Instantly, almost everyone raised his or her hands including me. My eyes glued, on one particular participant, was not very sure what conspired me to drop my hand even before anyone could speak. I was puzzled within, waited for this particular moment for so many years, why did I let it go. I felt happy inward instead of furious on myself, honestly, had no answer why I felt that way. Regression session begun and I started noting down every minuet instructions carried out by Venu. Throughout my life, I heard "Patience is key to success.” first time I saw in practice. Venu patience and skills were mesmerizing, how effortlessly he regresses the client.

With the onset of dusk, first day of training was over with much to do at home. I made my way back to home in Bengaluru traffic. Numerous thoughts about training, about my future and about participants, kept me engrossed, never realized when I reached home.  Meaning of coming back to home is to feel affection of my family, play games with my daughter and dance on her tune.  My affection and love for my daughter can never be expressed in words, but I believe, that is what Love is all about, a feeling. No matter how much time I spend with her it is always less, case was no different today. Clock was ticking 10 PM. There was so much planned for next day and as usual alarm was set for 4 am.

[23-December-2018]

As expected alarm did not go wrong at 4 am, a nice sound for me but disturbance for others. In last one year, this was the first time when I decided to give myself some more time. I opened my eyes with a beautiful feeling, as if I am living my dream. Whatsoever, it was 5 am and clock had no respect for my feelings.

What a miss, an hour in morning is quite a lot. Time and planned work in morning, are always in conflict. Additionally, I lost one hour. I decided to make up for the lost time by reducing certain works, one such work was, shower from cold water. Intensity of cold water and rhythm of my chanting of "Hare Rama, Hare Krishna." were in sync. In short, I was compensating the chillness of water by chanting mahamantra "Hare Krishna, Hare Rama.". In recent times only thing, I am consistent with is, my Mediation practices. Meditation is part of my everyday routine and finish before stepping out of house. Today also, I did not break the tradition and commenced Mediation. Once I started Meditation, all urgency wiped off. During mediation, everything came to standstill. I lost the battle with time, when I finished my mediation; time was 6:45 am. Hurriedly, started from home and decided to finish assignment in training hall before training begins. Lord Buddha once said,

            "The trouble is, you think you have time."

This statement was thoroughly apt to summarize my condition. Training started on dot 8 am and I was late by five minutes, did not get enough time to finish my assignment. Day begun with exercises. Post exercises, everyone sat on same place as of yesterday. Venu asked to shuffle the sitting positions. Between my philosophy (last bencher) and Venu's instructions to shuffle sitting positions, my philosophy won. I moved to another chair on same table. In first half of the day, we discussed about past life regression therapy and about Masters (who made this happen).  Past life regression, therapy is not moon dropped and have been in existence before pre-history. In the session, lot of myths were clarified and pitch was set for some principles, which we must not break as a therapist.

This was second day of training and I was desperately waiting to be regressed. Post lunch session begun with group regression, I allowed myself to follow the stream. I had glimpse of my past life but nothing concrete. Once session ended, participants sitting both side of me visualized their past life. To demonstrate therapy, Venu further regressed both the participants. During regression, one of the participant was full in tears. This was not the first time I saw someone in tears but my reactions were different from usual. Somehow finding it difficult to see her in pain. Above all, I was more puzzled with my strange behavior; I knew the participant from last 16 odd hours but was severely disturbed, seeing her in pain.

We witnessed the regression of another participant and with the closure of regression session; second day of training was over. With each passing day, my anxiety was growing, to be regressed. I was not sure why I was so desperate to explore my past life. I started wrapping my things. Suddenly I heard voice of my friend, "you also had glimpse of past life and would you like to be regressed?" I readily agreed for regression. During regression, I relaxed in no time but my desire to be with my daughter did not allow me to get anything. However, I did hear a statement "That's it for the day!” May be it was destined, not my day. At around 9 pm, I left the venue. By the time, I reached home, my daughter already slept. I am not so blessed who does not have expectations. I was disappointed, not to spend time with my daughter. Dejected, lay down on the sofa for some time. Million thoughts kept me occupied for two and half hours. It was 11:15 when I hit the bed and almost immediately fall sleep.

[24-December-2018]

One of my favorite quote about dream is

“Dream is not the thing you see in sleep but is that thing that doesn't let you sleep.”

This was what exactly happened with me, I woke up even before alarm could go off. I started my day with routine workout. At around 5:30 am, started my meditation. No matter what are the circumstances, I am always calm during my mediation. This was very unusual meditation session; I saw some of the participants, some garden and heard some voices. I brushed aside whole mediation experience, thought, May be past life regression training went to my head or I did not slept well. Today, meditation session was longer than all other sessions; clock was ticking 7:10 am when I finished. Hurriedly, rushed towards Venue.

After reaching venue, stepped towards last bench but destiny had different plan. Once reached on last chair, Venu approached towards me, held me with my shoulders and guided me to first chair. His internal energy had virtually took me off. If remember correctly this was the first time in my whole life, I was in front seat. Despite four hours of sleep last night, fully charged to learn more.

After initial few hours of theory on regression, I got my first client to regress. Pumped up for regression, to apply all my knowledge in practice. My first client was tough on the outside but soft on the inside. I felt blessed to have such a client who noted down my traits on which I had to work upon. Initially, I was puzzled and continued my job. He had different approach when it came to care for me, he was very honest and direct with his words. His feedbacks helped me in long run.

As day progressed, applied my whole knowledge and tried my best to regress him. One of the great thing of my first client was, he observed me and provided feedback at the end of each session. At one point of time, it was so; I anticipated his feedbacks when there was none. His genuine assessment was grace for me, helped me to learn more.

Day ended with bit of chitchat about Shambhavi Mahamudra and Shoonya mediation. On my way back to home, feedbacks of my client were running in my mind. At home, this was the first time; I opened the workbook, which I merely thought repository of Lunch coupons. Stunned with the information deposited in workbook. I read the book twice and got answers of all questions I was looking for. Indeed, it was very late by the time I finished the book. I practiced the progressive relaxation while in sleep as well.

[25-December-2018]

Yet another misty morning appeared as God's mercy on me. With zeal and zest, started my morning workout. I was reaching training venue late from last two days either by five or ten minutes. Today I decided to be on time and started my mediation earlier than usual time.

After few minutes of mediation, my mind was completely blank. Today, my experiences of mediation were little strange, I was in tears from beginning of the session and felt presence of someone next to me. This was contrary to all my meditation session until date; I always took time to be relaxed or to experience anything. Nonetheless, I resisted the presence and continued my mediation. Soon after, I saw a person who happened to be in training.  It was quite strange to have such a vivid visualization of the person. I called her AMMA (mother) even when I felt; I am wide-awake with closed eyes. Visualizations were so absolute that I could describe geography of the place, ornaments, clothes and even much more. 

Once finished my mediation felt nostalgic, person (whom I saw as my mother during mediation) is younger to me. I was in limbo for some time after my mediation, rational part of my mind was refusing to accept her as my mother but visualizations were so strong that I could not overlook at all. Today I wanted to turn the clock back and visualize entire mediation experience yet again however it was not meant to be. It was 7:10 am, when I regain myself a bit. I brushed aside entire mediation experiences and got ready for training. I decided to ride bike to be on time. Although, I was last person to board the training room, I did not miss anything today.

I always believed, 

“Nothing happens by accident you are exactly where GOD wants you to be. “

This time it was slight difficult for me, as soon as entered the training room, person (whom I saw as my mother in mediation) was standing right in front of me. More I wanted to forget visualizations of my mediation more it were evident as if I have to conclude something unresolved. Whatsoever, I was in fix, how do I react?  It could had been weird, if I had expressed my experiences right away. Nonetheless, I said "Hello" and stepped towards the first chair. Most of the participants shuffled their places but I wanted to be around, Venu, who radiate positive vibrations.  Yet again, day begun with wonderful exercises. Although I tried my level best to be in training but my mediation experiences did not allow me to absorb anything. Everything was running in my mind as if watching same movie repeatedly.

Finally, during tea break without much deliberation, in casual communication I blurted out my entire experiences to the person. I can honestly say that I expected everyone to laugh but reality was different. She listened to me patiently and probed me further to share my experiences. I felt light.

After tea break, we had to regress same client as of yesterday. I recapped all the steps and incorporated knowledge gained from reading workbook. Despite my best efforts, I could relax him but not regress. Genuinely I was dejected and discussed this with many people however could not get any lead, why was it so. With this, we winded up for lunch.

Post lunch, Venu offered to demonstrate regression once again. Regression had to be conducted on clients, so I was not even an option. Fourth day of training and my desire to be regressed was much more than anything else. My longing for regression did not arrive but it kept me going in the hope that one day it will be. I made up my mind to surrender myself completely whosoever regress me. Nonetheless, Venu started regression of the participant. I started noting down minutest detail of regression. I was full attentive and noting down all details for initial two hours.

I became impatient as time progressed. To rejuvenate myself decided to take short break. Session was still in progress when I reentered the training hall. As we say 

“Patience and time do more than strength.”

Classic example of patience and time was right in front of my eyes. Venu's patience was treat for eyes. Despite being in session for more than four hours, he was looking fresh. Numerous movies and statements are made to choose the work you like doing best. I believe that is where his passion was laying. He inspired and ignited the fire in me to do where my passion is.

Once session was over experiences of the participant wet my eyes. I regretted for my fidgety. I felt despaired and sad for my restless and found difficult to forgive myself. I had only feelings, no words and when we do not have words, we smile. That is what I did. I gave very warm hug to friend (who was regressed) and within myself pleaded for forgiveness from Almighty. Somehow I felt, this was message and learning for me to be more patient. Everything will fall in place when time is right and have to surrender myself completely to Mother Nature.

Venu decided to regress another participant and this time I surrendered myself completely. This was the first time, I realized, what it means to feel the pain of others. In session, I cried along with her (person who was regressed) and laughed with her smile. My heart was melting entirely and emotions of love dissolved me further. When regression session was over, it was 9 PM. Most of the participants decided to stay and practice regression; I opted to leave. Before leaving the training hall, Venu chose my therapist. My therapist and I agreed to be early tomorrow to regress me.

While on my way, back to home million thoughts kept me occupied. I did not realize when I reached home, I believe, I was hypnotized.  By the time I reached home, love of my life, my daughter slept. I lie-down next to my daughter. She felt my presence and turned towards me. I hugged her and never realized when I slept.

[26-December-2018]

This day was different I woke up even before alarm could go off with message from someone in dream

"You may never know what results come from your actions, only thing matter is, your intentions.”.

Unlike other days, I had no hurry to be anywhere. I lived the moment and after finishing my morning workout, started my mediation 30 minutes before usual time. A sense of freedom, calm and relaxation from beginning of the session itself.

Today's mediation was much more intense; I felt presence of many people around me, dressed in white robes. In no time, soothing white light appeared and engulfed me. This was not the first time, I was experiencing Soothing white light but it was much more comforting and rejuvenating today. I was floating in white light and suddenly a euphonious voice rang in my ear,

"You will not be the same person again.”

I did not know, if it was impact of voice, tears rolled out in full flow and could feel all over my face. Tears were part of me from beginning of mediation session, but these were more intense. I waited for, may be 15 to 20 minutes, to hear that voice once again however nothing happened. At 7:15 am, I opened my eyes, this session was longest than any of my session until date. 

I rushed towards my car. As agreed with my therapist I had to reach venue earlier than everyone else. In no time, my car was racing 100 km/h before famous Bangalore traffic could halt. Although, I was late and confident I will not reach the venue before or on time, there was no hurry with in me to be anywhere. I just wanted to be participant in current moment.  Something was dissolving in me. May be yesterday session had lifelong lesson for me. As predicated did not reach hotel before but on time.

With full enthusiasm, I walked towards training hall. On the way greeted by a wonderful person, we spoke about famous Bangalore traffic. As we were stepping towards training hall, saw Venu and few others were taking pictures. In spite of being late, I decided to be part of photoshoot. This was contrary to my personality; in general, I get hyperactive even if I am late by a minute. Famous author Joyce Meyer once said,

“Patience is not simply the ability to wait-it's how we behave while we're waiting."

I was living every moment; do not know if this is how patience works.

Training begun at 8:10 am with stretches. This time, I volunteered to conduct stretches session. I was calm and felt like laughing on everything. Once stretching session was over, I looked around for my therapist however could not locate him.

There were some questions and answers for next 10 to 15 minutes until Venu announced to conduct group regression. I was predetermined to let go myself entirely. I chose a place next to speaker where dim lights were falling on my face, to make sure not to fall sleep.

Immediately after closing my eyes, tears rolled out. This appeared to me continuation of morning mediation session. I neither tried to hold my tears nor blocked myself with any possibility. I was ready even if it was last day of my life. Gradually soothing white light appeared and engulfed me. Comfort, Love, relaxation and bliss are too short words to describe the presence of white Soothing Light. I chased the white light when it started fading. I wanted to be in that light forever. My conscious mind completely gave up; no worldly pleasure could describe the bliss I was experiencing. I flipped through faces of many people, few of them belong to training session and rest were my family members. I knew these were not fantasies; most of the people were dressed in different costumes or in different geography. For a moment, I stuck to one person but her adieu; allowed me to be with white light. I felt, I was in cloud. I sensed as if I myself is cloud who could cover everyone. Experience was so joyful that I wanted to be there endlessly. However, this was not meant to be. All of the sudden my whole vision was filled with darkness and fog. There was something unexpected happened which was beyond my imagination, for a moment, I saw a master. I shouted in ecstasy.  I was stunned and my whole existence was shattered. Experience was surreal that tears rollout in full force. I knew, I was screaming, I wanted to scream even louder, to an extent I could not speak thereafter.  Nothing mattered to me, only his presence and his glimpse. I really wanted this moment to be last. I was so desperate to get another glimpse but destiny had different plan. Yet again, I was covered with soothing light, which calm me down. I was flying with white light. Consequently, pictures of my past life appeared. A long awaited desire was fulfilled. I waited for this moment for many years. It was not even inch of doubt; it was, I, despite completely different appearance and body. I was not sure how long it took but entire experience was so wonderful and enriching, did not want to come out of at any cost.

Harivansh Rai Bachchan, a famous author, use to say to his son.

"If things happen according to how you wish, that's good, but if they don't, that's even better."

My wish, to be in trance, was not above the Divine force. Yet again, felt presence of Master but no visualization, explained purpose of life and asked to go back. Although, coming back to this body was suffering, denying Master order was beyond my existence. I opened my eyes after short while. Even with full awareness, my whole body was numb. Each fiber of my body was in bliss and energized. Something changed, felt like born once again; everything looked so beautiful so much love. Everyone and everything became part of me. I felt like hugging everyone, I did as well :). I took hour or so to recover from experience but it was meant to be with me forever.

Later in day, Venu asked me either to be a Therapist or client. I chose to be Therapist, did not want to let go experience of regression. Not sure what changed in my energy level, I could do much better job as a therapist and could regress the clients. We broke for lunch shortly after regression. During lunch, many people asked to share experiences. Everything looked so beautiful. Post lunch, yet again I got the opportunity to regress one more client. This time as well I could regress client completely.

At the end of the day, Venu did group future progression therapy. I chose same place but once I closed my eyes immediately fall sleep. Probably my time had not come to see the future. I could not recollect anything of the session but to my surprise, feelings of my earlier session were more intense. At the time of writing this blog experiences of my regression have grown multiple folds with each mediation session. Many unanswered questions are clearer with each session of mediation.

Officially, at 5:00 pm, five days of workshop was over. We took many selfies and one of the best picture to describe our excitement.

Last two hours in training room begun with meeting alumni of previous batches. A sense of familiarity or may be my openness to be inclusive took over. Since few participants had early evening flight, in respect of time, certification distribution was done. To cherish memories, I was self-appointed photographer and took pictures of everyone, hugged to almost everyone. Few participants left the venue, remaining formed the circle and shared their experiences of training. Melting moments of workshop were listening to everyone's experiences and their journey. It was fascinating to listen to everyone, just to realize everyone is HERO in his or her life and I am watching his or her movie now.

As we say Time is substantial when it is good, an hour passed in the blink of an eye. We danced for some time and cut the cake; a picture does more justice to describe our happiness.

Toughest last hour for me, when gradually one by one everyone waved hand and warm hug. Not sure why it was so but I felt a part of me was saying fond adieu. I know, I will cherish these moments in my whole life. This may be last time when I was seeing everyone together but I was sure these were five best days of my life and met with people who accepted me, what I am. They had no expectation from me... Only one thing an unconditional love and profound bliss...At last with heavy heart I left the venue, left uncountable memories... In addition, message for my life to work upon!

This is my commitment to my Master and Gurus (SadhGuru and Venu)!

"My inception to conclusion is from you! Your directions are my command."

Lastly, I am meager to offer my gratitude but I know!

"Each passing moment realizes me; I am not too far from you, My Master …My Lord...! KRISHNA!”

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